a message to me in 2006

I’m home alone on New Year’s Eve. At least this got me to thinking. Being alone on a celebratory night does that to you. To go into a New Year marks changes. Changes for the better. So this is a message, for me in 2006, to make this new year better than its predecessor, 2005.

I have to strive to make things better. Make myself better. Firstly, a situation such as this, being alone on New Year’s Eve, should be the last of it. I don’t know how to phrase this, but for the new beginning in 2006 I have to start putting myself out there. I have tried to pep talk myself this way so many times, I know. But the situation remains the same.

For me in 2006, don’t let your situation bring you down. There is no point in crying over things you are unhappy about but set out to make it right. Lying on your ass is not going to make anything happen. Neither do things happen overnight. A spur of the moment burst of life and enthusiasm from myself, which only lasts for that brief period, isn’t going to change anything either. It would make that period seem much better than others, but it can only last for that one period.

Strive to be a good girl. You know you want to, but you let other influences get in your way, or just your weak mind. Discipline is key, keep that strong and maybe you’ll be halfway to being the sweet, wholesome, good-hearted girl you want to be.

A little prayer for the New Year:

Lord, bless the New Year as it comes. I pray You’ll bring with it many good tidings to fill us all. Keep us safe and healthy and good for You Lord. May you fill us with Your love and care throughout this year, and Lord I pray we would be constantly filled with the longing for Your Word the year through. Thank You Lord. Bless this day and all the days to come. In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen.

An end to a momentous chapter

A little closing to a reasonably good year. College has been an interesting experience. Life has been reasonably good.

A few things that I'm glad about that came with 2005 is of course, Lee Jia Liang. A new beau in my life, a new person to share life with, a new person to care about. Jia Liang is one of the few things I'm glad about that came with going to college. He has been an unique addition to my everyday life, making the days go faster, and also phone bills higher.

Another thing I'm happy about that came with 2005 is my amazing journey with the Jalan Impian cast. I gained a whole family, complete with kids to watch over, sisters and brothers to share experiences with, and elders to gain knowledge from. Jalan Impian has truly been a milestone in my life.

In this year, Ah Khoo got married, so that's minus one singleton in the family, plus one family member. Another thing to be joyful for. Jun achieved 3 A's in his PMR. Another yay. Papa organized Maybank Visa's Golf Tourney, opening a new field for him in his work life. Mum is just as wonderful as ever, spending more time with her this year in shopping and such. Auntie Suan recently came back for 6 weeks, spent loads of time with Ah Ma and she's all healthy and hearty. Becky has grown up to be a cun chick, but still an adolescent at heart.

There are many things to be joyous and thankful about in 2005, and I'm anxiously waiting to see what 2006 will bring.

Xmas comes to Town

Tomorrow is the recording of this year's Xmas show with the Jalan Impian cast. I'm so happy it's here, these events are so spectacular and I always have more fun in a day than I have in weeks. Everyone's a little happier, a little more smiley, laughter is constantly in the air, everyone is so light-hearted and cheery. Coupled with the spirit of Christmas, you got yourself a joyous wonderland.

I just love it all. Taking it all in, it just makes me ecstatic. The Jalan Impian cast is such a wonderful family. What's more, my sexy Santarina outfit makes the disappointment of dancing for only one song momentarily disappear. My fantasy of donning a Santarina outfit has finally come true. For once, my outfit rocks the socks of everyone. Yes!

On another note, exams are just around the corner and ready to hit me in the face. This exam is going to be way tougher and I cannot, repeat CANNOT literally afford to screw it up. There is no way to go around this. I have to head towards the dreaded grindstone. Oh the pain.

Today, had quite a good time in Mechanics class, though it was too early in the morning to be studying. Mazrah sat with me, and we had a lively chat about presents and Xmas. She was really a big help in suggestions for guy presents. I've have not had this kind of fun but "bad in a way that we are not paying attention to the lesson" talk with someone for a heck of a long time. It was actually quite refreshing. And on another happy note, had a good long overdue talk with Anusha today. Yes it was a good day.